Maintain Internal Heights
20 year old male (gay) from
Rhode Island. I am a Human being who lives each day as a gift to be lived free from fear. Outside of that I'm here to become inspired and inspire other people to live free.
Non-Duality Spiritual Teacher
~Come recognize the Freedom that is here within all experiences. Inquiring why you are not free, have peace, and are not filled with everything you are seeking.
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Mystic Poet
You can live your normal life, and your not more special when this happens to you. Your just free to be peace, love, happiness, bliss or what ever you were seeking because you are already all of it as the Self as that natural space.
This one belief can stop Truth from ever being realized as it is. It is the belief that you can be “improved upon” I find it comes up a lot hidden behind the thoughts, “I’m work on it”, “I’m trying”, “I’ll try that or this”, “If only I could”. These are just to name a few but what they point to is a personal story about someone who is not ready to see Truth as it is. Someone who is only trying to
Improving will only improve a duality through a moralistic perspective. You will never be able to be whole and complete. You’ll always be striving to desire and become something if you keep this belief.
If for a moment you can drop the idea that you are, “less than” and trust in this unknown space that is self aware already (infinite) and earnestly have the devotion to live here and now as the silence. Then no matter if the mind arises or not it can be seen that its just a operation system of the past or fear projections of the future. Then openly you can accept your “less than” thoughts as they are just thoughts. Again resting back into this aware presence of Being. Free to do what ever comes from that silence of the heart and create a new world.
With “personality, and less than stories” of someone separate there will always be suffering. For the space of awareness which allows this to operate is perfect but the identification that you are the operation system of mind is always seen through duality of two. Never complete, never whole, always a-part from what is Truth.
So it comes down to you, I’m speaking to “you” as awareness not personality. Don’t worry personality will still be there but if you trust in the unknown space of awareness non-descriptively then suffering will be seen through new eyes of perfection, oneness, wholeness.
Then ask yourself who will suffer?
What separate self will suffer?
The separation only started when you as the infinite gave the power to that of the finite mind. Once the power was given, full identification was taken from you. Unlearn it all, rest openly aware of the perfection of existence without any thought you’ve had in the past.
Rest as the infinite space of awareness.
Okay, so you might ask how do I do that and the mind wants to jump to “becoming” something. Yet you are empty, infinite and expansively vast so any attempt to seek through mind will only lead back to mind. Simply become aware, more and more aware of the space in between thoughts and listen to that. Listen to the silence. Let it expand, not by effort but by trust, acceptance, surrender.
Something I here a lot of is that, “I have great moments of stillness and peace and just awareness, but then I lose it.”
For the people who believe that stillness, peace, happiness, awareness can be lost, who is it lost to?
How can stillness be separate from you who is stillness as your nature. Is it not only by the identification with the clouds of thoughts to be your separate i-entity that you lose it?
This relaxation of the personal story of separation and deficiency allows that which is already your nature to shine forth. That is why many teachers, including myself tell you that nothing needs to be done. Just get rid of the false beliefs with everything that you are not. Then what remains is that empty, vast stillness that you are.
Remain this empty, non-expectated space within all experiences, staying true to the heart and then all that will come will be a reflection of that Trust in the Source that you are as the absolute. That absolute source will take care of the relative.
You can’t lose it,
You can’t gain it.
You are it.
Not as a thought.
Not as a belief.
But as the one looking at them noticing that you are prior to them arising. Just purely aware to do what you feel is needed. Not out of fear, but out of the Love of the Self as Source.
LOVE
Relationships
Friendships-Relationships & Love
Society teaches us that the the love we have for friends and lovers is a different type of love. These influence separate love into sex, and friendship. Friends only have friendship and lovers have sex and friendship combined. We label and describe and try to confine while separating love into categories. These categories do not explain the intimate level of life, the feelings, emotions and connections that are not just on the surface but encompass the whole being. Sex is not love, friendship is not love.
Love is what is behind both of these concepts. When one person meets another at a deeper level then what is on the surface. It is beyond what we think about the other person, about what we believe to be true or not true. Love is beyond all the mind has to offer a relationship. Love is free to exist and expand or contract. It is undefinable.
The issue arises when we start to think of love as a “thing” or concept of beliefs and ideas. That are bound by rules, or a curtain way we are suppose to act. This bondage is the past conditioning which clouds love. If love is conditioned then it has a form, and if you are bound by a form then anything that goes against that form becomes non-loving.
The conditioning is what outlines the love, and then there is no ability to take action when a situation arises. Simply you fall into the conditioning, or the past to look for the right way to react to the situation. You react, instead of taking action when action or non-action is needed. When you react, you are unconscious and any action you take to “fix” the situation is dead. It has no life to it, it has no love in it. It simply is what you have been taught, what you believe to be true or not true. Instead of relying on something more then thought, desires and attachments. Love is wakeful and ready to take the right action without any fear of lose.
Love should be spontaneous in the moment and never concerned with the past or future. When it is conditioned with the past, the present moment is lost. The present moment is all you have when you are in a relationship with someone. In relationship you must be fully alert, still and at peace with yourself. If the mind is lost in the conditioning, old insecurities will arise and you will unconsciously act out of your fears.
This fear in relationship comes from the fear of losing the other person. The feeling that the other person is what makes you feel “love”. This is when love turns into desire, which leads to an attachment. Suffering develops when the desire of the attachment does not meet the expectations of the desirer. We believe love to be this attachment, this fight to have the “other” person reflect what we feel to be love. When we have these expectations, we begin the path of suffering. We have no control over the actions or reactions of the other person in the relationship. Any attempt to gain control, all love is lost. When falling into this trap the reflection of the mirror of the other person is cloudy and not clear there will be a fight to wipe it clear. Instead of wiping the cloudy mirror into something clear the mirror ends up becoming smudged and even more cloudy.
This is what is happened when in relationships when there is a conflict. When conflict arises there are either two choices- first we can simply decide to let go or take action, or decide to fight. The fight is not with the other person, it is in fact with the desires and expectations that have been created within ourselves. Without even noticing it we have become conditioned to our own beliefs. Even these beliefs have stopped us from being able to Love.
Love is not bound, it is un-bounding and free. Knowing this unbound freedom within our own self is the key to taking the step to realize love is never separate from ourself. Love is never in the other person, it is within our own self. It is truly our own reflection, it is to be given. When two can both give love in a relationship without any conditions or concepts or ideology behind what love is. Then at that point the mirror becomes clear and as they both peer to look in, all they can see is themselves. Perfectly free and unbound, perfectly in love.
When entering into a relationship both parts of the whole should be un-bounding and free. The relationship should encourage the other to become more free, to face insecurities and fears. In the relationship if either of the party has let the fear (desire/attachment) overcome and surrender is not the main effort then much suffering will develop. Surrendering the desires and attachments at every moment you have the opportunity. Even though we are not perfect, the goal should be to alert and wakeful in order to be aware of when it is time to surrender and let go.
At this point the thought might have appeared that how can letting go be a valuable in a relationship. Letting go is the paradox of life, when realizing that we don’t have control over the “other” then we must let go. This letting go or surrender isn’t because you simply don’t care what the other is doing, but its a letting go because you actually see that you don’t have control over the “other”. Surrendering your desires is the selfless act of being humble in a relationship. It shows that your insecurities about feeling love are not part of your view on love. Instead you are letting the other person be completely who they are, without needing to change them. When you start to try to change the “other” then you are now selfish and your own desires and ideology is vomited into the relationship. This is when relationships turn ugly, they become back and white and lose all their color and spontaneity. The presence of peace between two can not survive when the mind lives in this dualistic state of expectations and desires. Always searching and never seeing the relationship that is here right now.
The dualistic mind separates things into, good and bad. If you start believing in the story the mind has offer then you automatically reject on aspect of the relationship. If you reject the bad feelings in the relationship you are only seeing half of what is in front of you. Instead, if the relationship is fully embraced from the bad, to the good, to the ugly and beautiful then something flowers. Then you can be at peace with no matter what appears because you know that the mind is transient and will soon shift its course. If you can simply be still in relationships, and not label all the energies that arise. Then you can transcend the dualistic mind and become whole within yourself. First- you must be whole within yourself. Then you can become whole with another, but it starts with you.
We also must realize that just believing in all of these words about love, surrender, letting go, desire, and attachment will not bring the progress of integrating action into our lives. What I have found best for weaving awareness and wakefulness into ordinary life is that we must let go when ever we notice our habits and emotions arising. When that feeling of inadequacy comes, no matter what the words or images are saying about what the inadequacy is from, we must take the opportunity to completely surrender all desires and let them be fully active. This is a doorway, it takes awareness to realize that the door has been opened and it takes action to let go and walk through.
Take an honest effort throughout the day, while being in relationship and outside of relationship to be aware of your activity and turn it into an action that comes from that silent space from within. When the opportunities appears- take the step. If you hesitate it will pass you by. The truth is not screaming for your attention it is waiting for you to realize it has never left you. It is waiting for your surrender. It is waiting for you to say “YES” to your suffering in your relationship. When you completely embrace the suffering, you allow it to be complete not only half and hidden. When emotions are not allowed to be expressed in silence they are masked in noise. They will come forth, when you are not fully alert. You will not even realize that it has happened. Try to walk in awareness, not as a state of mind separate from ordinary consciousness but as what you already are, freedom. Take this into relationships and surrender to LOVE.
Freedom Right Now
The spiritual trap of the feeling that we must be saved or we are not already free is one that I see often. That feeling that god, or the universe or a more improved self will one day save you from the suffering that you have. This train of thought is missing the fact that life as it is, “is perfect” beyond the stories we tell yourselves.
The question I often ask is, If you are not already saved and perfect right now when will you be perfectly at peace with life and not need to be saved.?
In the following moments if the seeker is not ready to surrender their suffering then they will begin to tell a story about why they have not reached peace in their lives. This is where seekers might say “well I’m not ready to do that yet”; “I’m not strong enough”. The seeker who seeks for peace will never find peace for they believe peace is something separate from their current experience. When the seeker stops seeking and realizes that within all experience there is a presence of non-judgmental, unconditional, and understanding love in which all experience arise then the seeker is free.
This shift in consciousness takes a full surrender of the “self image” that is based on conditions. Those conditions include attachment to, or desire for, something to change in the present moment. From the point of attachment all suffering arises for this present moment is not good enough. When we realize that even if are conditions play out perfectly for a short period of time, that just as the seasons change so will the conditions in order for you to be happy or at peace.
Transcending this belief in needing to be saved or believing that you are not already perfectly at peace, is the key to being able to be as you are. The conditions in which life appears are impermanent and the more we grasp onto that which will change and strive for it not to change, the more we spiral into that traps of the conditioned mind.
For those who are still seeking I leave you with this question, when will you stop seeking and just learn to trust in being as you are? What stops you from being at peace, or happy or calm? Look into what is holding you back, find out is this an attachment to an image you have of yourself (ego) or is it something tangible?
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